I am not happy i don’t no why I lost many things in my life but still wants go head and wants to achieve all of the things which i was once dreamed
Iranian Proverb:
I used to complain because I had no shoes until I met a man who had no feet.
Yeah, the guy’s feet were cut off because he kept complaining about having no shoes.
Yeah, he should have gone out and bought one of those “self help” books and positively thinked of some shoes 
It’s God challenge to you. So keep moving and don’t ask him why because He has a purpose. Someday you will get your dream or sometimes you’ll get more.
I’m glad you’re not giving up and hope you’ll achieve your dreams.
I’m closing this thread though, as this is not really a subject suitable for these forums.